Hmmm

I think I have a bladder infection. How shitty would that be?

I'll answer that one for ya...

VERY!

I'm kinda feelin' shitty today anyway.

Kinda shitty, and kinda good to.

It's very conflicting, and it's driving me crazy.

I would have to say I'm having a "bipolar day" lol

I'm happy I'm back in San Diego, but that just means we are that much closer to Chris leaving. My back hurts like hell, and I'm having bladder infection symptoms. Jasmine is learning so much more, and becoming so much more animated lately, and that makes me so happy, you have no idea the feeling unless you are a mom, and have been in this position. But then it makes me so sad, because she too is that much closer to leaving.

Awww, she just woke up and is crying/fussing. She went to bed late tonight, and that always throws her off a little. She's done. It never lasts long. Only a few seconds to a couple minutes maybe. :( Sad, nonetheless.

Anyway. I just want her to stay this little forever, but she wakes up everyday and I'm amazed by how much she changes.

She hugged me last night. I started crying.
We were going through our bedtime routine, and were on the last step. Cuddle time. Usually I just hold her close and rock her and hug her and tell her how much I love her and how happy she makes me and she tries to grab my hair, or the light or a toy, or just puts her hands on my chest and burrows into my chest, telling me she is tired and to just let her go to bed. Well, last night we got to that point, and I picked her up and was patting her back, and rocking her and she put her little arms around mine. One was around my shoulder and neck, and the other wrapped around my arm. It was the warmest feeling I've had in a long time. It's just so different when you get that feeling from a baby. They don't do things for any other reason than impulse. It was an amazing feeling, to say the least.

I'm going now. tata